wooowsh( a pathetic diary of a doctor)

i am soooo sorryyy you got abandoned.. no i dont mean to abandon my bestest frnd of the world im just tooo effing busy putting my life into places..im finishing surgical posting next week..i dont really feel like i belong in this department.i dont perform my level best and everyday has been a struggle.not physically,i dont mind running around all day long,i am mentally exhausted.and psychologically.yeap i might not need psy follow up yet.i do not know why but even if i tried to run or hide i’m always founded.not in the absconding kinda way but even if i’m not incharged of the ward,even if i present the simplest case which i am very familiar with,i would still end up with a scolding.maybe not a major one but still…. come on.. gimme a break already.. perhaps i am not competent..perhaps my brain is rusty. perhaps i ve used up all my intelligence that i am much so left with mediocrity. i do not know.. but i have tried .i tried hard.

just for one day.the whole day.don’t scold me.

heyya blog

i know. it’s been forever. arghh so lazy to go to work tonight…1st call some more.. been working for a month now.. feel like,a thousand years. now i understand why they miss india so much.the pressure is unlike here.here it feels a lil suffocating..the superior’s expectation and all.gosh i miss my pgs…they’re soooo kind n faaar more helpful n friendly than the mos here who only know to act superior and all great when in fact they’re only few years senior than us the house officers..but i’ve been coping fine..i tagged for only 10days n so far i havent created a major mess,hopefully will never do..i just hope that my body can take it so that i can perform excellently.just contracted dengue fever last week..but i didnt take any leave. i hope i can survive these 2 years..ok gottago get ready for my ‘flexi hours’..hope everything will go smoothly for me tonight.

n daymn. i miss him again.

not again!!!

blog not dead yet

wow.my blog is still alive. i thought they have suspended it or sumthing. just started out my working life a doc in malaysia. i really dont know of what to say just yet.
i just hope i can survive.

goodbye blog?

well i received a rather heart breaking email today..it says:The account with the username ‘wwx’ (wwx.ismywebsite.com), is running out of disk space.
Please remove some files from this account, or ask the administrator to increase your disk quota.
This account has used 150.78% (150.78/100.00 MB) of its allocated disk space.

actually this has happened to me once before but the administrator kindly upgraded my account last May and now i guess i have exceeded the quota again..it’s just that i remembered being upgraded to 400MB of storage and 4GB of bandwith.but now suddenly it has become 100MB again..
I could just ask matt(the administrator) to again upgrade my account but i am very embarrassed to do this again..He’s been kind enough to upgrade my account lst time without me having to pay him a penny.owhh i don’t know…
maybe i should just let go of this beloved website of mine(which has 0 visitor haha)..perhaps i could download the data and save all my stuff in here(wonder if they’re gona delete this website one day)
anyhow.so saddd…
this thing is one of those things that keep me alive,my companion in my sad and happy moments..
i love you blog.thanks for the wonderful service u have done through out these years.

The Frazzle updates!

hey yo’alls
so,this week has been a busy week for me(compared to the last few weeks)
on monday i took my driving test(for the 2nd time) and guess what! i passed,finally! i was a bit lucky that day because that JPJ officer was VERY lenient this time(and handsome too haha).i pretty much did the same fatal mistake(my car’s engine died at the traffic light,twice!) but instead of asking me to get out of my car(like that PMS lady did to me last time)he asked me to restart my car quickly.besides,as i was coming out to the main road,a car honked at me (i remembered that my teacher once told me that being honked at on the road means immediate failure).when we arrived at the Driving institute,he wrote something on the paper and marked me as PASSED! omg only god knows how grateful n thankful i was that moment. i feel like hugging him(ups!haha)but i didn’t of course.i thanked him instead.MANY TIMES.i’m glad because i didn’t give in to the EVIL temptation to bribe JPJ(or the guaranteed license as they call it) to pass that test.(NEVER COMMIT BRIBERY,IT IS SINFUL AND HATED BY GOD)i guess i’m just waiting for my first car now
The next day i went for the interview by SPA with my brother(thank God he works at KKM and his house is at Putrajaya).my other two friends from college also went on the same day.i initially thought i was unlucky that day because i was i assigned for the room with two female interviewers when my friends got the rooms with only one male interviewer each.as i predicted,those who got the same room as mine had to wait longer for their turns because each session last for almost 30 minutes(while the other rooms 15 or 20 max).even though i was the 10th candidate for the J room,i had to wait for almost 5 hours for my turn.but thank God everything went well and i was able to talk confidently in English(as i can never be formal with my bahasa Melayu) and answered the questions. but luckily my session took only 20 mins or so.
and today(thanks to help of my brother who works at KKM) i already got the offer letter for my induction on the 13th of dec.my brother wasn’t sure if there is still any vacant place but luckily there is!otherwise i have to start working next year which seems soooo late eventhough it’s just a month away.
so that’s all for now.
i have to go cook for dinner.
love.
dr.Frazzle

seriously no more feelings for yeww

im bloody serious.
like.i dont miss you that way anymore i don’t feel happy talking to u like i used to.i am sooo over you.i just wana keep u as a frnd,because i appreciate u that way n i feel like it’s not that easy to develop such a beautiful yet complicated friendship.
its a good thing we dont hv any romantic feelings towrds each other anymore because it wouldnt work anyway.
u r the 1 at lost.cause u just missed ur best shot.

pass2 kan la aku oi

omg been forever since i last updated this blog.
i failed my jpj driving test last 2weeks for the road part gona hv to repeat next monday.suxs.my car’s engine died thrice that’s why.n tuesday will be my interview with spa.dayamnnn.
lazinesssssss.
ohmygosh i am sooo lazy to do anything.
yes im supposed to refresh my medic knowledge(if there is any,at all)
met my besties yesterday. had some issues with my mom.i know i shouldnt be angry at her,everything she did is good,i have to be the bad guy no matter what but gosh really my patience has its limit.it was just this close to reaching its limit.anyhow i felt slightly better today i talked to her like usual but seriously.only God knows.
forgive my Allah for i am sinful.i love my mother.
i am sincere.
whatever.
i cant wait to be independent.
depending on others sucks.like crazzyyy

salam

hello. just got back from my europe trip 9-21st oct 2011 ysterday morning. am still kinda feverish. maybe due to the drastic weather change.and i am soo lazy to start my life.have to go for driving classes,register myself at jpa,spa,mmc,attend friends wedding,convocation and also i have to start working!!! dayamnn.
havent finished screening my photos from the trip.
too bad my camera went dead the whole time during the tour.have to use frnds camera and it’s not that satisfying.anyhow,something is better than nothing.
while we were in paris,the french prime minister celebrated the birth of his newborn and the whole world rejoice at the death of muammar gaddafi.(or it may seem as shown on tv)
i want to write something abt the trip like what did we do on the 1st day and etc but im really not in the mood yet.. so see yoU!

from venice with <3

pronto! been a while. right now im in venice. yes!i AM in venice.tomorrow morning i’ll be heading to paris.it’s been a wonderful trip so far.(i dont want this to ever end..)
i gota sleep now because we hv to catch an early flight tom morning.
will update the whole tour story later!!

and the journey begins..

finished packing for my europe trip. this ain’t backpacking around europe at all.really i dont know what else should i or should i not bring. i hope i can survive the weather there.
dear blog.thank you for being a very good ‘listener’ all this while. pls take care of yourself while i’m gone.pray that i’ll get back home safely.. can’t wait to share my tour experience with you..hope we’ll meet again..